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Im Dian.
First, I absolutely love GOD. He's my savior, my hero, my everything. My family is my life. Im not that usual. Im different. I see things differently, so you would never understand me. But other than that, Im quite normal. I dont give a fuck about people and their bullshits. Im tired of pleasing people. I've lost a lot and I've learned to move forward. Life is too amazing to waste. I have my own thoughts. You dont know me, so don't act like you do. Ok? You dont know the chains that Ive been through. Dont tell me what to do, I can handle myself. I KNOW WHERE I SHOULD BE and I KNOW WHERE IM GOING. :) I have lots of experiences I would love to share. We'll have time for all of that. ;)

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Saturday, October 30, 20104:23 AM
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I just have to share this. :)

I noticed, As my life goes on, as time pass by, I've proved that nothings' really permanent. They all come and go. So while it's still here, grab it and live in the moments. After time had passed by, you'll realize that you can expect things to always be the same as it all was before -- people move on and so, you also have to.

There are days that life seems so good and perfect ~ so while it's still beside you, take the chance and live with it. There are no rewinds. Apparently, no pause button. While you're enjoying the moment -- time passes you by, then the next thing you know, moment was gone.

So here's what I feel.
I feel bad. I don't feel any better. Though I am trying. Im trying to make things fine. Im trying to make myself useful. Im trying to feel good. Seems to me, none of my try thingyy are working.

Honestly, Im not happy. Yeah. Maybe, Im not satisfied or contented, maybe that's the reason. Since, satisfaction causes us happiness. Ryt?
Or maybe NOT. Who knows?

I don't know what's wrong with me. I need trust and faith. I have to believe. Atleast, believe in myself.

Everytime someone asks me if Im fine, honestly, nah, no Im not. Then, next thing I know, I dropped with two words - "Im Okay." Did I ever mean it? Of course I don't. If you ask me tomorrow, same thing will pop up.

I don't wanna talk about this to anyone. Im so complicated right now - to the point, I don't know what to explain to people who cares to know what's wrong with me. Im so tired explaining this shit to people, cause even me, I don't get this shit. So, I don't know what to explain.

I tried. Hate the fact that they'll come up with some effing wrong conclusion then insist that it's the reason why I feel like this. Heck NO. It ain't the reason.

Or maybe, Im being immature. Im being a pessimist. But let's get one thing straight, I love God, And I trust him, I know there's a reason behind all this. I know he'll help me get through this nega season of mine. :)))

- Dian, 4thofNovember
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