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You are my sweetest downfall, baby.
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Im Dian.
First, I absolutely love GOD. He's my savior, my hero, my everything. My family is my life. Im not that usual. Im different. I see things differently, so you would never understand me. But other than that, Im quite normal. I dont give a fuck about people and their bullshits. Im tired of pleasing people. I've lost a lot and I've learned to move forward. Life is too amazing to waste. I have my own thoughts. You dont know me, so don't act like you do. Ok? You dont know the chains that Ive been through. Dont tell me what to do, I can handle myself. I KNOW WHERE I SHOULD BE and I KNOW WHERE IM GOING. :) I have lots of experiences I would love to share. We'll have time for all of that. ;)

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Nakakalimutan mo yung taong hindi mo dapat sinasaktan.
Saturday, September 17, 20117:29 AM
Sad fact.

Dumadating talaga yung time sa buhay natin na nakakalimutan natin yung mga taong hindi natin DAPAT sinasaktan. Yung mga taong sobra tayo kung ingatan, yung mga taong sobra tayo kung pahalagahan. Pero sometimes, at the end of the day, sila pa yung sinasaktan natin, sila pa yung pinapaiyak natin.

Nakakadurog ng puso isipin na minsan, we people can be so heartless. Right?

There's this person, idk why, pero may something sa kanya na para bang ang hirap pag ka siya na yung nawala. Pagka siya na yung napagod. And honestly, he's one of the people that I don't wanna hurt.

And it breaks my heart to think na, kahit ganun, nasasaktan ko pa din siya, most of the time. Im so lucky na hindi pa siya nagsasawa umintindi.

Pero I know, khit na hndi ko i-admit, deep inside, darating ang panahon na magsasawa siya umintindi, mapapagod magpasensya, at bibitiw nlng.

It sucks.

Walang patutunguhan ang post na to.
Last words, for me, the best way to heal wounds, is to give our hearts a break.
And I'll change. I'll be better. And then in that way, I can't hurt you anymore.
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All you're ever gonna be is mean.
Friday, September 16, 20113:57 AM

How can people be so mean? Maybe it is true, people will break you. Their words will hurt you. It will cut you and it will eventually destroy you.

But why are even letting them BREAK US?
For sure, may rason kung bakit tayo nagpapaapekto sa kanila. Kasi iniisip natin kung ano ang iniisip nila sa atin - kung ano ang tingin nila satin. How come their judgments became so important to us? dba? Those who mind, doesn't matter. Those who matter, doesn't mind. We don't get out of bed each day to please them. Trust me, we will never be good enough for them.

We are not their battery-operated robots. Bakit kelangan araw-araw na lang natin pasamain yung loob natin sa mga sinasabi nila about sa atin? Kahit naman kasi anong gawin natin magshishit talk padin sila behind our back. Mga coward ppl nga naman, say it to my face naman kahit once. Dalawa lang nmn ang choice natn e, pigilin ang sarili nating gawin ang mga bagay na gusto natin - then get judge by totally dumb people afterwards OR do the things we desire -then get judge by totally insecure people afterwards. :))) the choice is ours to make. I chose to do the things I desire, coz no matter what, people will ALWAYS have a "say" . Pathetic. Bullshit sila.
HAHA. but why patalo? iignore nlang natin sila, sa pangingielam sila ng buhay ng may buhay masaya eh, LET THEM. SANA UMUNLAD KAYO. I hope you guys are happy.

A reminder to my friends, hindi tayo robot aa?
We do not live for those people. Gawin nalang natin yung gusto ntin, wag tayong magpapaapekto. Wag magpapadurog.

Dahil alam naman natin ang mga ganun tao - sila ang hinding hindi dadalawin ng KASIYAHAN, Tama? Papatayin sila ng inggit at insecurities.

You can take everything I have. You can break everything I am like Im made of glass. Go on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground LIKE A SKYSCRAPER.

SOMEDAY, I'll be BIG ENOUGH so YOU CAN'T HIT ME and all you're ever gonna be is mean. :p
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Give your heart a break.
Wednesday, September 14, 20114:21 AM
Kasi pag ka nahihirapan damdamin ko, blinoblog ko.
Ganto kasi.

Wake me up when all is done.

Sa buong buhay ko, ang dami ko nading mga nagawang pagkakamali. Unang kalaban ko ay ang kakitiran ng utak ko at pangalawa ay ang pride ko - pero madalas naman hindi ako ma-pride.

Kung naibabalik lang sana ang panahon, sana naitama ko lahat ng pagkakamali ko nun. Well, lagi naman ganyan, gusto nating ibalik saka natin itatama. Pero that just impossible. No one can ever go back, no one can make things right. Sbe nga, all is said and done.

Kaya pagkatapos jan, pagsisisi naman at panghihinayang ang kalaban natin.
Bakit ba kasi hinayaan natin mawala lahat? Bakit hinayaan natin na dati yung mga taong halos ino-occupy yung half ng heart natin eh ngayon ay back to zero? Strangers again? How can we be so stupid to preserve our shitty pride and let everything fall apart?

Pero sabi nga ni Joanna - Wake up. People come and go.
Pero sayang. Sayang lahat ng pinagsamahan. Kung hindi lang sana ako nagpakain sa pride ko, kung itinama ko lang sana lahat, hindi sana ako mag-eend up dito. But Im not saying that I didn't even try, I did. I tried a lot of times. Kaso hindi na talaga nagwowork. Parang sa sobrang durog na durog na nung salamin namin, hindi na siya maayos at mabuo.

And this is the hardest part of all, yung tipong makikita mo yung memories niyo before, and all you can feel is regret about everything that you've become, and all you wish is to go back and make things right.

But at some point, I know this wasn't my 100% fault. Naging laban ito para samin. Naging isang laban kung kanino dapat ibato ang sisi at ang kasalanan. Though, lets BE REAL, lahat kami ay may kasalanan. Nagpreserve ng pride at pumasok sa konsepto ng turning tables. Nagsimulang magmukhang contest ang problema namin, contest kung sino ang pinakawalang pakielam. Pero deep inside, sobra kong nahirapan at sobra kong naapektuhan sa mga nangyari.

Pero wala na, ganun siguro talaga.
Ang masasabi ko nalang, sana inayos namin nung may panahon pa kami. Nung hindi pa huli ang lahat para maisalba ang magandang relasyong meron kami nuon. Sana hindi kami nagpatalo sa pride. Sana hindi naging makitid ang isip ko nung panahon na yun. At sana nirespeto namin ang choices ng isat isa, sana nirespeto namin ang isa't isa hindi na bilang kaibigan, kundi bilang tao na lang. Sana naitama namin nuon. Sana hindi ganito ngayon.
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